SatanClaws

I think it is pretty official that I don't post here any more...I do post somewhat regularly on facebook...easier to do with the phone. And on that note....:

I promise you will get old
I promised you everything
To protect you wherever you go
I'll give you this diamond ring

Just promise you will remember
A promise should last forever
Right up to the dying embers
Of a fire that burns so slow

It's a different day everyday
Don't want you to walk alone
But how can we carry on
When all of these things have gone

Just promise you will remember
That promises last forever
Still after the last dying embers
Of a fire that burns so slowly

It's a beautiful thing to do
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Remember I do love you
Have courage in what you say

And promise you will remember
That promises last forever
Still after the dying embers
The fire that burns so slowly

And sometimes you just have to walk away
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Wishing today was yesterday
Yeah, sometimes you just have to walk away

We are all full of weakness and errors; let us mutually pardon each other our follies it is the first law of nature. - Voltaire

One of my favorite quotes.

Hmmm, it's been a while since I drank that much. It would have been fine if I wouldn't have put so much vodka in my Monster Khaos and vodka drinks (roughly 1 1/2 shots of vodka to about 3 shots worth of Monster). Anyway, I guess I poked Gumby in the face to be annoying? Don't recall doing that and I don't think he'll read this but uh, sorry about that. Hell I even talked about relationships as triangles and squares...don't remember that either. Probably yakked Goose's ear off on the balcony I'm sure and possibly kept saying the same things over and over. Probably didn't help that with all that I did drink I had only 1 slice of pizza and 1 chip to eat for the whole day. So if I said anything really, really stoopid, sorry about that. I even remember for some reason I kept calling Goose Gumby and Gumby Goose. I don't even remember arguing about calling Dano, in my mind I thought I suggested it once and stopped, obviously the evil twin took over at that point and I really wanted to call Dano at 3am to tell him Bustard left his phone.

So I've learned to stay away from Monster and Vodka.

I think it's that time again where I should make a post.

I'm alive. Ok, all done.

Ok, alright. Informative post it is. I've been dealing with tons of crap, mainly work and finding a new place to move into. I worked mad OT last month (100 or so hours of it during one pay perisod) and I got shorted on my check by about 50 hours of it. It's been just over 3 weeks now and I'm still trying to get the rest of it. They paid me about 1/3 of the 50 on my last check and HR/Payroll was like "That's the rest of it". Ha, no. They even convinced my Boss and Supervisor both that their calculations were wrong. I did the calcuations 5 times (probably a hell of a lot more than thatand I'm still owed money. My boss and supervisor felt bad because they took HR's word over mine but then they showed me the calcuations and...they were still missing a lot of money/hours from my checks. Normally it would be easy except I get paid Differential pay and it scales up to a higher percentage for some of the hours I work. So I had to calculate which hours needed what rates of pay/percentages and which ones they have already paid me for which was very hard to do because they just randomly gave me extra money under categories that I shouldn't have.

I think I may have found the place I'm going to move to, that is if no one else grabs it before I do. It's a Condo just south of Bell on Cave Creek. It's 1308 sq.ft. 2 bedroom, 2.5 bath w/ 3 levels to it, a nice kitchen with an island, side-by-side Fridge/Freezer, smoothtop electric range, 2 car garage. They were recently built in 2005. Looks very spacious. It's relatively close to work (10 miles to work, mostly freeway). Now I just need to get approved for it. Current lease ends next month and I want to give myself enough time to move and unpack as well as clean the old place. I must admit though, I will miss the atmosphere of living in Tempe...minus the construction.

Hrrmm...back to the boredom of work.

Bored? Have some free time and wanna laugh? Atleast, I think its funny.

Here you go, I consider it work safe but then again, it is suggestive. Also, once the intro is done, go through the main menu in the lower-left.

Just some random vids:

http://hailxenu.net/lol.swf - Polka!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9wlmx8qQHiA - My co-worker swears this is me when I have my bad hair days and tried to get me to beatbox too

My roomie is starting to piss me off again. Every day this week since Sunday I've come home and he is passed out on the damn couch so I can't go do anything in the living room. Plus, it's not like he accidentally fell asleep there. He has a pillow and blanket and when he wakes up when I come home he doesn't bother to go into his room, he just goes right back to sleep on the couch. Grrr. Only 10 more months and then I can move out. I've been so tempted to just go out there and start playing the PS2 but I'm trying to be courteous...trying. Don't have any plans tonight after work, might just stay in. It's been rather slow at work. I'm just playing Poker and Sudoku on my cell phone, they help the time pass.

This Saturday I'm going to bring my PS2 into work for the first time hopefully time will go by a lot faster. Also, headsets for cellphones are a godsend. It's one of the few things I can actually say I'm surprised I didn't get one sooner.

7 more hours and then I am on the road. I have to run back to my place and grab my stuff, get gas, a drink, and...some deoderant cause I'm out and I don't want to be all smelly o.o;;; It's gonna be a long drive and I only have the same CD in my car that I've had for the last month, hopefully I can last the drive.

I've been on this call for a hour now and still going, but I'm determined to get this damn DIMs PC back up and running tonight for the station regardless of who the hell I gotta call damnit! Without this PC the whole station cannot generate revenue for the packages that it puts through it. It just keeps running into one issue after another after I get them fixed. Argh. Anyway, I probably won't be online for 2 days or so, if you wanna yak, call me.


"There are many things in life that will capture your eye, but very few will capture your heart. These are the ones to pursue. These are the ones worth keeping."

It is abnormally slow here at work today. Been almost an hour since I took a call. Been looking at clothes online I have an idea of what clothes I'm going to throw in my wardrobe, definitely more T-Shirts...Summer is here, just in time for AniZona, joy!

I watched Requiem for a Dream last night. It had been a while since I last watched it; has Jennifer Connelly in it *drool*. Always been a big Jennifer Connelly fan. It's amazing how realistic that movie is and it's pretty damn accurate regarding drugs. I think tonight I'll go home and watch The Hills Have Eyes and another movie yet to be determined. Though I'm still here at work working. An hour after I was already suppose to be off and probably won't be leaving for another half hour or so. Sometimes, I wish I had a simple job...

*April 9th*

Hmm, I actually have a lot planned this summer it seems. I'm actually debating about whether or not I want to go to Coachella or not. I want to...but I also want Courtney to go and that is not looking good. I could save that vacation time for when I go to Vegas. A new unplanned trip I found out about last night. My friend Steve is going to Vegas for 2-4 days for his B-day and invited me along. We'll be staying at a suite at the Marriot. It's like an apartment from what he told me. That's from I believe June 6th-9th. There's Anime Expo which I am thinking of staying there for possibly a week, I'm not sure. I want to go to Six Flags again and possibly some other things while I am over there. It all depends on if I have the money.

*April 10th*

Actually, I'm really debating on whether to go to Coachella or not. Just because of the expense, really. No other reason. I could put the money to good use elsewhere. I filed my taxes and...well, I'm getting more back than I thought. Last year, I got just under $900 back and that's about what I expected this year but it seems I am getting more back, $400 more. $1299 for Federal and $39 for State. So with this coming paycheck also being my spending paycheck I'm thinking of ordering my camera again. It's now going to cost me $200 less to get it this time then when I ordered it 2 months ago. A couple other things I thought about putting some money towards but I may just save it for a rainy day or something, like dental work.

Tonight when I get home I think I'm going to complete watching Firefly, watch a movie or 2, and play some Kingdom Hearts 2, eat some rice (it's been my diet for the last 2 weeks since it's all I really have to eat). AniZona is this weekend, I think the free happy hour will make the day go quicker. I promise not to get totally plaster, just a little happy =)

Long night, need food. Will post all about it tomorrow. For now, it's food time.

So, let it be known I remember nothing of last night. Well, I do actually but parts of it I can't recollect. I can't believe I let myself drink that much. *sighs*

I went out last night to celebrate Ken's 22nd B-Day. I made a Bloody Mary, extra spicy, while we waited forever for his friends to call back, which they never did. Fucked up I tell ya since they said they were going to come. So we went back to his place since he wanted to drink some Morgan which we mixed with Dr.Pepper. I drank 3 and he drank atleast 4 or more. Gackto, K also came with us to the Bar (Dos, of course) I went there and I drank 3 Bloody Mary's...atleast that's all I can recall. My tab was for 10 drinks ($30). I know I bought Ken 2 drinks and K a drink as well. which is 6 drinks, where the other 4 went, I don't know. I don't recall leaving the bar and Ken signed my receipt since I guess instead of a $6 tip I tried to leave a $36.00 tip. yea, that would have sucked. So we went back to Ken's place and funny thing is I remember us going through the door and playing poker, which I also remembered that we only played one hand of texas hold'em which I thought was wierd but when I asked in the morning we really did only play one hand. Nicole and Arnold showed up and were playing poker. I won the one hand cleaning Steve out pretty well.

After that, I remember nothing but apparently I was up for 3 more hours and I was really funny. I guess when I went outside and was talking with Arnold and Nicole, they decided to leave and....I surfed on their car. Seems I passed out in the kitchen according to Ken and Steve. And I had a really bad bruise on the top of my right wrist. Black and red. =/


Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable

All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm

Enjoy the silence

This will be a random-ish post of stuff to remember.

The couple that was made for each other at Denny's on SaturdayNight/Sunday Morning:

El Donquin "Honky Tonk" el Tonquin Anderson (one of my 3 pancakes, face drawn on by Sharpie, creamer for a hat, sugar for a mustache, a cigarette to boot while sitting in a chair thanks to a fork and a window but currently resides in the back of Marilyn's car)

and the Ms:

Eleanor Pandora Wallflowerson (which was the grease left on a window from a pancake being thrown at it, perfect circle, and a face smudged into it)

There's pics somewhere I believe...late nights at Denny's, many memories.

Also, Mom's B-Day on the 5th, forget and I'm a dead man.

I had a really wierd dream last night and after I woke up, I was pretty depressed. I have never woken up from a dream feeling depressed. It was very strange and I felt vulnerable, I sat in my chair editing pics for a friend but the feeling wouldn't go away.

( My wierd Ass dream )

The dream stopped there. I just kinda woke up and it was then that I felt extremely depressed. I don't think it has anything to do with the dream and I had to rush the last bit there as I am now an hour late from leaving work. Though I did look back at the dream, and if this dream is suppose to represent anything, I think I know what it does...but that's another post.

I need more time...*sighs* Actually, I need a vacation away from responsibility. At this rate, death is inevitable.

waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Drnking the night awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy



......with my friend Joooooospoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

"There is precious little you can gain from a pinball machine. Only some lights that convert to a score count. On the other hand, there is a great deal to lose. All the coppers you'd ever need to erect statues of every president in history (provided, of course, you thought well enough to erect a statue of Richard M. Nixon), not to mention a lot of valuable and nonreturnable time.

While you're playing yourself out in lonesome dissipation in front of a pinball machine, someone else might be reading through Proust. Still another might be engaged in heavy petting with a girlfriend at a drive-in theater showing of Paths of Courage. The one could well become a writer, witness to the age; the others, a happily married couple.

Pinball machines, however, won't lead you anywhere. Just the replay light. Replay, replay, replay .... So persistently you'd swear a game of pinball aspired to perpetuity.

We ourselves will never know much of perpetuity. But we can get a faint inkling of what it's like.

The object of pinball lies not in self-expression, but in self-revolt. Not in the expansion of the ego, but in its compression. Not in extractive analysis, but in inclusive subsumption.

So if it's self-expression or ego-expansion or analysis you're after, you'll only be subjected to the merciless retaliation of the tilt lamps.

Have a nice game."

-Pinball, 1973

I took this from a recent comment in a Murakami community post regarding favorite quotes from books. This is a really good one. This is why I like Murakami so much. This book is one of his older books iirc but still hasn't made it over here yet. They need to translate it...

Well, now that I got that last post out of the way it's kinda lifted some weight off me. It's surprising how that works, but I am glad that it does.

I still am in the process of moving. I helped my roomie move his stuff in today. The office was closed all frickin' day although they were suppose to be open from 10am-3pm. So I gave my key to the roomie and I have to call him if I need to move stuff in or need to get in the place at all. We both weren't happy about the office at all since they are closed Sundays so we have to wait until Monday to get his key. I'm goingto try to finish packing tomorrow so all that is left to move is the big stuff.

I won't be able to put up my curtains and bamboo blinds like I was able to at my last 2 places, not unless I work some magic somehow. The way they have the blinds it prevents me from putting up either of them. Putting up the pictures on on one of the walls will be interesting...trying to drives nails through a brick wall.

I went and picked up a shower curtain today but noooo, I forgot the damn curtain rings so I had to hang/wrap the liner over the curtain rod while I took a shower. I was determined that I was going to take a decent shower today unlike on Thursday!

Friday night was B Movie night at a friend's place and we watched "Eating Raoul" and "Robot Monster".

Need to go pick up a Cable Modem tomorrow from somewhere.

Cox Premier Internet already installed as of 9:30am this morning. I have my priorities straight =) Hello 9mb/s d/ls